Up until when will we have this?

Up until when will we have this Cries a nagging thought in my head All the while we are cuddled together As you rocked me gently to bed

Up until when will we have this? softly spoken words ringing in my ears In those times that we say our "I love you's" During those days that you sweep me off my feet.

Up until when will we have this? The words I would rather not appear But here I am writing about it Like a ghost that I summon even though I tremble in fear.

Up until when will we have this? Do I really need the answer? Do I really need to know? Or is there something more that these words are leading me to explore?

Up until when will we have this? It keeps buzzing in my mind The fear of losing out on life, on love The fear of disconnectedness, of being out of sight

Because I want more of these moments The cuddles, the kisses the caresses I want more of these times Even the crying, the frustrations, the heart breaks

All these to keep on making me feel alive. All these to keep on making me feel connected. From the tips of my head to my toes. From each pore in my body, from my heart to my soul.

Up until when will we have this? The question is irrelevant now it seems. What matters is this moment and the rest of our lives in between.